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Feels-  Awake
Thinking- SPRING!!!!!
Hating </3- My runny nose
Watching- My cat run around and be stupid
Listening to-  The heat running
Talking to-  The kitty
~+ The Good Stuff +~

I finally got my braces off. :D

Yes, finally.

They were removed on Tuesday March 25th.

I had them on for 2 years , which was only supposed to be 1 year so my teeth would look nice for my senior pictures.

I am so happy they finally came off.

Thank goodness.

I was tired of everyone thinking I was 12 because I had braces.

It's also kind of amusing because Nick has never seen me without braces.

:)

Simple rant.

I know I have been submitting nothing but jewelry as of lately but im on a kick.

Sorry to my watchers who originally watched me for other stuff. I will come back eventually.

Oh and good news.

My last day of school is May 27th and my graduation is on May 30th.

It keeps getting closer... and im nervous as fuck!

I don't think I am going to walk just because I really don't want to. I just want to get my diploma and GET OUT!

Today was the last day of my spring break and lets see....I did nothing.

Yay.

Thanks for listening haha

Kelsey

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  • Listening to: My Kitty
  • Reading: A Clockwork Orange (Yes, again)
  • Watching: My dumb animals haha
  • Playing: FFXII
  • Eating: My Tongue
  • Drinking: Sweet Tea
~+I am currently...+~
Feels-  Sickly
Thinking- hm..maybe i will start updating this more
Hating </3- the cold
Watching- police lights
Listening to-  Ims
Talking to-  Noone Really
~+ The Good Stuff +~

So yesterday was my dreaded 18th birthday. I have been dreading this birthday for who knows how long now. I wasnt excited at all, and the legal ending of my childhood just doesnt sound all that wonderful to me.

But anyways... it ended up being pretty good. :)

I recieved alot of my birthday and christmas presents early because i am going to Illionois for christmas with Nicks family. (although we are currently broken up, but i am pretty sure we are getting back together.)

Nicks gift was my favorite.

He got my bees wax chapstick (which i am totally addicted to) Wyvernhail by amelia atwater rhodes, and a 2 pound bag of sour patch kids.

He surprised me with FLOWERS :) they are gorgeous and smell really good

and he took me out to dinner at apple bees.. and made the people sing to me haha i turned so red. but the free cheesecake was totally worth it.

and then we went to the movies because i had won free tickets. the movie sucked and was stupid but i cuddled with him the entire time..

there is still hope.

and i have realized that noone in the world is like that boy.

he means everything to me.


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  • Listening to: Voices
  • Reading: Wyvernhail by Amelia Atwater Rhodes
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: I wish
  • Drinking: I wish
~+I am currently...+~
Feels-  Amazed
Thinking- wow i havent updated this sucker since April 2006...o.O
Hating </3- the cold
Watching- not a damn thing
Listening to-  Deftones - Change
Talking to-  Myself
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Hello everyone! ^-^ and wow, yes as it is noted up there i have not updated this sucker since April 2006. I guess that goes to show you exactly how bored i am today. Well not exactly bored, just really..desperately in need of an update and im sick as usual so i figured today would be perfect.

Anyways.. i have been with a boy, named Nick. and we were dating for the 18 months..but are currently broken up. So things in my life are really..T___T right now. I'm actually pretty depressed.

And it's my senior year of high school...and i started going to a new school. Kinda shitty but i guess i don't really mind too much.

Oh and did i mention my 18th birthday is on Monday? THIS Monday...the 17th of December.

Pretty scary... ^^;

Oh, and i've turned from my love photography.. its not allll gone..but yeah. I've been making and selling Jewelry now and I LOVE IT. i am addicted and i want to go to college for jewelry design.

I have been posting some of my random designs here and there..so be sure to check them out when i actually get around to listing something :]

heres my store (www.etsy.com) on etsy...heres the link :

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Thanks for reading my updated nonsense ^-^

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  • Listening to: Dry Cell - Body Crumbles
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: I wish
  • Drinking: I wish
~+I am currently...+~
Feels-  Braced lol
Thinking- ugh...
Hating </3-certain people wanting certain people
Watching- CSI
Listening to-  Tv
Talking to-  Fred
~+ The Good Stuff +~

so yeah i got my braces today...and its definetly different. i look like a fucking crack head 13 year old. LMAO. but its all good. they are orange and totally match my shoes. :]

i'll be your winter coat
buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
with the collar up so you won't catch a cold.

i want to take you far from the cynics in this town
and kiss you on the mouth
we'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene


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Tuesday night there was a tragic car accident that took the life of a high school senior. him and his girlfriend were in a head on collusion with a pick up truck, he was pronounced dead at the scene and his girlfriend was flown to a hospital with none life threatening injuries. He was 17 years old, and a member of the varsity football team, and for birch run the football team this year took us farther than we have ever been in school history.

I did not know the boy personally, but i knew of him... and i think it is just sad .. sick and wrong that his life was ended so early when he had so much coming for him in the future. yes i didnt know him , but i heard he was a GREAT guy.. i know he will be missed.
At school today..it was just unbearable...everyone was crying and the atmosphere was depressing...me and some friends left after second hour because we couldnt take it anymore..

It aint fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away

Brandon Kenneth Cole
12-18-87 -- 12-06-05
find a guy who doesn't care if u laugh loudly,
chew with your mouth open, sing off key,cry
at the movies, or act like an insane person...
&& all it does is make him love you even more

i want a boy who will give me his favorite sweatshirt
& he will always whisper something sweet in my ear.
even if we are a million years old,
butterflies will still go crazy inside me

you know that moment when you kiss someone
&& everything around you becomes hazy &&
the only thing in focus is you and that person
&& you realize that that person is the only
person that you`re suppose to kiss for the rest of
your life && for one moment you get this gift &&
you want to laugh && you want to cry because you
feel so lucky that you found it && so scared that it
will go away

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed
to ever let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken
probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts
too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with
your best friend . You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll
cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone
you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of
happiness you'll never get back.



i want to be
everything you need;
every sight you see.
making you go c r a z y;
slightly your disease.
a love without a cure;
no uncertanties for sure.
the closest thing to alcohol;
that calls you back for more.



when he's not around
there is always something missing in my smile
~+I am currently...+~
Feels-  sick
Thinking-  mercury posoining :-p
Hating </3- this empty feeling <//3
Watching- tv
Listening to-  tv
Talking to-  noone
~+ The Good Stuff +~

i got tagged so i have to now type 20 things about why i rock!


1. i have bright orange converse
2. i have the ability to stay somewhat skinny no matter what i eat
3. i have such dark eyes, they look black
4. i dye my hair more than you do
5. i am obsessed with taking pictures
6. i dwell on the past
7. i can sleep long than you, and then continue sleeping!
8. i like music , except country
9. my current favorite movie is lords of dogtown
10. i love johnny depp
11. i love star wars..(expecially hayden christianson! grroowwl.)
12. i like anime!
13. i like to read, my fave author is amelia atwater - rhodes! and than of course manga!
14. i have an older brother
15. i cant play any musical instrument
16. i wish my hair didn't hate me
17. if i wasnt so ugly, and uber shy that would make my day
18. i would be happy if i had my drivers liscence
19. birch run sucks my nuts
20. i have more totally rad socks than anyone i know.

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~+I am currently...+~
Feels-  Tired
Thinking-  only 2 more months
Hating </3- sore throat....<//3
Watching- the news
Listening to-  the news
Talking to-  Cassi and Jimmy
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Happy birthdaaaay ...... my sexy katy! happppy birthday to yoooooou!. :) ~hope you had a great one


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~+I am currently...+~
Feels-  Sick
Thinking- i wish blake was online..
Hating </3-  School..<//3
Watching- CSI
Listening to-  Tv
Talking to-  Jake and Kayla
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Im going to post livejournal posts from the last few days all in one..cause im bored and i havent updated this in awhile.

Whys It Okay For Girls To Grab Each other And Kiss
But When Guys See Other Boys Do It They Think Its Breath Takingly Repulsive?, Stop Being Such A Fucking Hypocrite.
Loves Love. I Dont Give A Shit What Your Sex May Be...

I don't feel like .. happiness is possible for me right now .. or ever .. I am so exhausted .. I am physically exhausted .. but more .. mentally than anything .. I guess...im sleepy...

hey everyone i dont feel like updating..i had the urge..but then...wait..nope. sorry maybe another day

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Tonight I will sleep with a gun in my mouth
Good night my love.

Have you ever just woke up one day .. and realized that something was just .. missing .. that you didn't feel complete .. not really feeling like you really fit anywhere .. not feeling like you have a purpose or a place here .. I'm not really sure how to explain it .. but .. feeling like you could just disappear .. you could run away .. and no ones life would change .. it's odd .. that feeling .. especially when you know you have friends who care .. I'm not sure what's really going on with me anymore .. I have these little spells .. where I just drift away .. and think about all of these things .. I think about things that have happened .. or .. how I wish things were .. just .. everything .. I hate it .. whatever tho .. I'll get over it ..

It's funny sometimes how much I just .. don't trust people .. like they tell me one thing .. and .. in the back of my head I'm just like .. "yeah right" .. ::sigh:: .. I guess it's just like self defense tho .. right? .. never trust anyone and you'll never get hurt .. and yet .. I still let myself get into these situations where, whether I trust them or not, I'll eventually get hurt .. hah .. guess it's just my self-destructive side coming out .. whatever tho .. life is pain .. right? .. it's weird tho .. how I can fear talking to someone about something because I am so afraid that it will change things .. and how .. no matter if things are going good or not .. I still wont talk to this person .. because .. I'm afraid to make things worse .. because .. things can always get worse .. lol .. I'm such a chicken, aren't I? .. ah .. I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about anymore .. just .. thinking .. I tend to do that a lot when I get no sleep ..

Fuck I'm tired .. well ... fun fun ..

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  • Listening to: fall out boy - sugar were goin down
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Willow

Drink up beautiful.

Fri Aug 12, 2005, 12:30 AM
i seepy

Everything is so infinite. Life. Love. Pain..
What does a single drop of water matter to the ocean? What does a lonely blade of grass matter to an entire meadow? What difference do I make in this world? Why do I really matter?

If I had known how my life would turn out, would I have changed anything about my past? Would I have made the same decisions? Would I have chosen the same friends? Knowing it would always end in heartbreak, would I have ever fallen in love?

..Yes. I probably would. Because what is the point of life if you never really live?

Life is full of pain, love, and emotion. That is what drives us all. Where you end up just depends on how you deal with the pain, embrace the love, and whether or not you listen to your emotions.

(sorry for the ramblings .. I'm quite tired)

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  • Listening to: The Used - "Cut Up Angels".
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Big Fish

would you be my little cut?..

Thu Aug 4, 2005, 12:02 PM
shot through the heart & youre to blame
Darlin' you give love a bad name

I have so many emotions all bottled up within me right now. So many things I want to say to so many people. But instead of voicing my pains and problems. I shall simply stay silent. And let this torment grow inside of me. Allowing it to eat at my soul. Like a slowly spreading cancer. A painful new disease.


I wish the feelings that I have for some of my friends were not so unrequited all the time.


It's been so long since I've cut. And it's getting so much more difficult to restrain myself.

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  • Listening to: The Used - "Cut Up Angels".
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Big Fish
You taste like self-destruction

Love is like a loaded gun pointing straight at your heart. Your survival depends merely upon the one whose finger is on the trigger.

The more you care for a person, the more power you are giving them to destroy you. With every ounce of trust instilled within a person comes a gallon of pain in return.

And yet, we are all searching for love. This weapon of mass destruction. When, placed in the hands of a human, can become the most dangerous and painful thing in our world. While, at the same time, being the only thing that truly makes life worth living.

So, the question is, to love or not to love?
To live or die alone?

To hold a rose with deadly thorns..
..Or to never truly feel?

i just feel so numb inside. i wish i could fade away....i've gotten to the point where losing touch with reality seems better than going through another day..what the fuck do people see in me? im a horrible fucking person. why would someone waste precious time on me? why would they even care about the nothing that is me? i dont deserve it. i dont deserve my friends..i wish so bad every fucking night that i could get as far away from here as possible..as far away from this place as i can...simply because i am not worthy..

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  • Listening to: Kittie - do you think im a whore
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Big Fish

Slit your Wrists and Pray

Mon Aug 1, 2005, 9:59 PM
This dark and quiet bed feels like the middle of nowhere

the last few days have been extremely awesome and fun :). i am friends with cassi again, and i am very happy that we are friends again. i went over to her house on thursday or friday. we stayed there with her cousin beth :). beth is awesome and alot like me, i had fun sleeping on the top bunk and scaring her. we went to my house and broke in, cause i dont have keys..i crawled on the roof and went through the window. lmao. it was freakin great. then we went to freeland to cassi's cousins house. :) met some new peoples. kyle, kyle, luke, matt and ian. they are interesting, they are like 12-14 but they act alot older. we played spin the bottle with me , beth cassi kyle and kyle. it was hilarious. we watched scary movies with luke, who is hilarious! he was so scared it was great, kyle and kyle called and we told them as a joke that me and luke made out! kyle m, got really mad and it was pretty funny! it made me laugh alot because i think luke it gay! the next day was fun too...we hung out with bre, cassis other cousin. we went around the neighborhood lookin for everyone, who we couldnt find. then finally we found kyle and kyle who had been looking for us. we went to ians house..noone was there, so we just hung out in his house. :D. its not like anyone would notice if we messed it up or not. we took his matress and were riding it down the stairs. it was fricken fun as can be. :) then we played truth or dare! i had to make out with kyle who is 13!!! it was so fricken weird...i felt like a child molester. ;_;..he was hot and all but 13!! and not to mention cassi likes him, and i like kirk. :) i mean i like kirk alot, and according to the ouija board im going to marry him and cassi is going to go out with kyle tomorow. :) yaaay! we attempted to do a seance , and i got cassi bre and beth into the pagan thing. :) the seance didnt work thouhg. *tear* im such a retart "i just ate the tip of my stick." i dont really feel like updating anymore at the moment, im making cassi a livejournal :). cause shes sexy. im still at her house, but i will prolly be leaving tonight or tomorow.

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  • Listening to: none
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Blue Crush
Just tell me its ok to die

Yea i havent really updated about how thursday we went up to melissa's (shes awesome and im so stealing her dog.) and hung out with her and travis. travis is 12..but whoah hes gonna be hot when hes older. well we also hung out with kirk (he is cute :3) and his friend Blake. (whom is also cute, and kinda looks like kipp who is hot) they came home with us on thursday and stayed the night at my house until about 4 something friday. they are awesome! i wish they lived closer..i wanna see them more, and become better friends. cause they are awesome hehe

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  • Listening to: pussycat dolls - dont cha
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Gremlins

Silent But Screaming

Fri Jul 22, 2005, 5:47 PM
Don't forget to call the ambulance when your body hits the floor

So, if you can read people like books...i wish i could read you..

..and i wish you could read me...
you know.. sometimes I just wish that more people could read between the lines.



"I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you with every single word I said
It would come out INSIGHTFUL,
or brave,
or smooth,
or charming
And you'd want to call me

And I would be there EVERY TIME you need me
I'd be there every time

But for now I'll look so longingly waiting
for you to want me,
for you to NEED ME,
for you to NOTICE ME."

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  • Listening to: Shaniqua
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Silver Bullet
Sit back and let her die slowly don't cry, she didn't love you anyway

Jul. 17th, 2005|10:34 pm

Today was the family reunion..i had to wake up at the crack ass of dawn, so im really tired right now. the ride there was long and boring of course (so was the ride back) I love this park where the reunion is held, it's a nice place on a lake and it has a waterslide. last year i went on the waterslide and rode the little bike things but this year i felt to old.. They added a skate park and a mini golf course since last year. Of course me and kristi hung out at the skate park, searching for CUTE guys our age...of course we didnt find any. Some guy was hitting on us, he was kinda cute. "Hello Ladies. Hello. What are you up to? Nothing..." lol im not to much into chatting with people, im not a people person. i enjoy keeping to myself. we watched him and a few other people skateboard for alot of the time. he ended up asking us if we wanted to play dodgeball later..O.o..hahah yeah..right. Okay so there was this guy at my reunion, he looked really bored so to be nice we asked him to come swimming. he looked about 16..so he says he'll meet us after he finishes his cigarette...wtf? lmao he turned out being 18. it was nuts. the whole thing itself was rather fun, i hope its there next year to. When we got home i got into it with my mom..of course. when doesnt that happen? she's so stupid sometimes, and she doesnt listen to anything i have to say. im going to be fucking 16, and she wont let me ride my bike past certain spots, but i've done it many times without her knowledge, but a few days ago me kristi and lindsay rode up to mcdonalds and clumsy me hit a curb and wiped out, i had my dads radio taped to the front of my bike...it broke the antenna and scraped it up. she found out i rode my bike past my "boundaries" and she freaked out on me. i think its really stupid, shes was like you lied to me, blah blah blah. i AM supposed to go uo north to wixom lake with kristi on thursday so we can hang out with melissa and kirk(<3) and now she might not let me, i will be so pissed off if she doesnt. so what if i am boy crazy, most girls my age are. blame the hormones lol. tomorow im going over kristi's early in the morning and we are going to hang out with chris. Then on Friday, we are going to ann arbor again..YAY! i dont feel so hot right now, so i think im going to eat something then go to sleep...

yeah this is a old entry, the date is in the beginning, i felt like updating. sorrry but i like livejournal better

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  • Listening to: Queen of the Damned Soundtrack
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: Fight Club

We're Drunk With Lust Tonight

Fri Jul 15, 2005, 7:44 PM
Sit back and let her die slowly don't cry, she didn't love you anyway

yah i know i havent really updated in awhile. i have basically been with kristi for a long long time. lol. im not as depressed as i was in my past couple entries. im not friends with cassi anymore. shes stupid, and you know what i dont care that we are fighting. if she decides to apologize to me, she can shove it down her throat and choke. :) Kristi taught me how to drive the four-wheeler...suicide? i suck at shifting lol. right now me and her are babysitting a 3 year old named andrew. he's a cutie. lol. tonight and tomorow we might hang out with lindsay and some guys. maybe. Sunday is my family reuinion. NO JOE AND JOSH WAHOO! hopefully that wont make it boring and hopefully there will be lots of hotties so we can go babe shoppin.

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  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: your mom! haha..

all alone i break

Wed Jul 6, 2005, 6:53 PM
Everything You've Done Wrong

Would you buy something, like a picture frame or whatever, if it was broken?

That's the way I see myself.

Who would ever really want a spirit, a heart, a soul as broken as mine?

Why take something damaged when there are so many more perfect items out there?

Who would ever really look at a shattered piece of glass and think Wow, that's beautiful. It's exactly what I've always wanted.

It'll just never happen

i cant believe my "close" friends would be so heartless, yes i led her to believe i was completely fine..but am i ever? it hurts..i only met him once but still..how could you.

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  • Listening to: kittie and korn
  • Reading: the lion the witch and the wardrobe
  • Watching: hide and seek
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me,
what hurts more is
I would still die for you.

"Sometimes I just want to know what it's like to be you
We're making out inside crashed cars
We're sleeping through all our memories
I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive
(now I only waste my time dreaming of you)

Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness
All of our moves make up for the silence"

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  • Listening to: none.
  • Reading: none.
  • Watching: The Howling